Actor and entertainer John Barrowman has laid bare his struggles with mental health following a career-shattering scandal. In a deeply personal revelation, Barrowman shared how he battled with thoughts of suicide after facing accusations of inappropriate behavior on the set of "Doctor Who." Yet, through resilience and support, he's managed to stage a remarkable comeback.
In a candid interview, Barrowman detailed a poignant moment when he drove to the Colorado desert, contemplating the unthinkable. His career had come to a halt in 2021, and he felt trapped by the allegations of exposing himself on the set of "Torchwood." Yet, a simple message from a fan on the Cameo app brought him back from the brink. "You're looking at the dashboard of the car, and you've got your head in your hands," he recalled, illustrating the depth of his despair.
“Can I drive the car into something? Can I pull into traffic and go head-on into something? Can I drive it off the edge of a cliff?” Barrowman questioned, sharing the dark thoughts that plagued him.
Barrowman's journey back hasn't been easy. Dropped from his role as a judge on "Dancing on Ice," he found himself sidelined by networks that once championed his talent. Yet, four years on, he's beginning to rebuild. With appearances on "Celebrity SAS: Who Dares Wins" and a theatre tour, Barrowman is slowly reclaiming his place in the spotlight. His new show, "Camp as Christmas," has been a fan favorite, signaling a hopeful new chapter.
In his memoir, "Anything Goes," Barrowman once described the playful antics on set that later came to haunt him. Despite the backlash, he stands by his past actions as moments of levity. "It was something that was stupid and silly," he admitted, recognizing the need for growth and understanding.
For those facing their own struggles, organizations like the Samaritans provide a lifeline, offering support to anyone in need. Barrowman's story serves as a reminder of the importance of seeking help and the possibility of redemption.